Next Stop????.

y am i bloggin? coz im bored? or to chk out wat da heck is der IN bloggin dat so many ppl r into it?......... whichevr it is. i LIKE it.. i used to feel dat pennin down one's feelin for others to read is like layin urself out bare.. bt NOW i realise. dat its not DAT bad to write abt ur feelings.. rather u get to think more abt urself.. mmm not in da self indulgent way tho.. bt self improvement way wld explain it better i suppose...

Its been quite some time since i was introduced to blogs. bt nvr got d time nor d interest to start bloggin as such... guess everythings gotto happen in its own time.. i repeat Everythin....

Jus like dis one thing dat keeps hauntin me... where next? wat next? how? tho d harder i try to get myself to answer those q's the tougher it is to accept wat happens.. Bt hav come to terms with one thing.. "all dat happens, happens for a reason".... yeah yeah its tough to keep dat in mind ALWAYS.. been der...bt stilll.. im tryin..... Have to keep remindin myself abt dat.. every now n den.. bt most times i forget.. n by da time i recollect myself.. da damage has been done.... ppl around me wonder y i get soo grumpy.. grouchy.. for no reason at all... n u kno wat? dat attitude is contagious.. it spoils da whole atmosphere.. oh.... for da times id do ANYTHING.. to go bak to.. n do it over again...Bt do it rite dis time..

Der hav been times wn iv compared myself with others n felt soooo damn frustrated wit wat i was, as opposed to wat de wer... de seemd to kno wer they wer goin.. or atleast da next stop.. bt i was absolutely clueless(not dat im any better now)... actually still am clueless... once in a while try to get some clarity der.. bt go bonkers since i REALLY dunno wats in store for me... yeah rite i gotto plan... like wat? its not Dat easy... believe me...

i used to think dat true frndship is all abt bein TRUE to ur frnd's.. bt dats not "always" applicable.. mayb in fa fa land.. bt not in dis world.. learnt it da hard way.. bt a gud lesson it was..der was a period wen i thgt if dis is wat true frndship is al abt, den it sucks.. i still do think such frndships r best ditched... tho now iv gotten myself to accept things bit more liberally.. b true to those who r true.. n b as true as possible to those who r NOT true to u..Fortunately in da process did manage to get hold of some really gud frnds...

Too much of anythin is not gud.. n yeah givin anybody TOO much importance in ur life can b a bit of a negative.. evn da smallest things end up spoiling large portions of ur life....well.. bt der r ALWAYS exceptions...

Am tryin to accept things as de come.. and understand dat i need not compare myself wit others.. de r not gonna live my life.. I AM... so i live it da way I want to(umm.. within my constraints dat is)... Hopefully.. think im onto da first step...